Midnight-Thrity

Yes, it is in fact, the middle of the night, and oddly enough, the beginning of tomorrow. It's rather interesting how much a day can be just like a year with all it's seasons. Then of course a year is, simply, a smaller picture of life itself... with all it's ups and downs.
The clock ticks... and ticks... and minutes pass.
But here I am sitting at my computer in the dead of night contemplating the great mysteries in life.
Enigma is another word for it.
There is such puzzlement over this race of life. Puzzlement in that we keep trying to reinvent the wheel, and yet somehow though the plans are all drawn up in front of us we have no choice but to start again.
Why is it that we can't learn from the mistakes of others and therefore move ahead with a better understanding and footing to do things right? Even with the understanding of 'Cause and Effect' and that there are always consequences for the things that we do, we do it anyway. What is so insecure in us that we must determine to be 'brave' and willful? Somehow I am rather confused by it all. Take one man who is strong and confident and it turns out that he has such major faults as to be baffled over. Then there are those who's faults and insecurities are blatantly obvious that it would make a body cringe.
So what is the lesser of two evils? Which is the better and which is the worst?
It's like a dizzying circle, all the reason we might give to explain ourselves. The truth is, neither is the better. That is because they both serve a purpose under God. We find our answer in the Lord. "...for my strength is made perfect in weakness." (2 Cor. 12:9) therefore, "I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me." (Philippians 4:13)
But then we come back to learning from our mistakes.... and God has the perfect path laid out for us. And still yet, we must try it on our own... and blaze a new path... because somehow it will give us confidence? This world has a stunning way of completely leading us to believe that we really want what it has to offer... when all it has to offer is death.
I have a sneaking suspicion that when I am old and wise I will still not understand completely. It is all vanity anyway, right?